Sometimes...

...I worry I'm making all the wrong decisions
...I worry I'm failing at being a mom and a wife
...I'm afraid I don't spend enough quality time with Colin.
...I'm afraid I don't give Mark enough of my attention.
...I feel like I'm living someone elses life.
...I let Colin cry until he calms himself because OMGfortheloveofallthingsholy, mama needs a minute!
...I ignore Marks cries for help.
...I lock myself in the bathroom just to have a few precious minutes where I don't have to be something for someone else.

Then when I need it the most, Colin reaches for me and pulls me in close for a hug. Mark says "I got this. Go take a bath".

And just like that, I realize I'm doing something right.