Post Baby Weight Loss

So this really isn't an update...just me sharing something that became shockingly clear last night.
I was getting ready for my usual Friday night routine - taking a hot bath and shaving my legs - when I thought to myself "I've never really looked at my post-baby body. Maybe I should. It may help me feel more confident."

WRONG. Big mistake. HUGE. I never should have turned around and looked in that mirror.

See, I've been fooling myself by repeating I'm "only 10 pounds" heavier than I was when I first got pregnant over a year and a half ago. Sure, it's true that I am only 10 pounds heavier but these 10 pounds are sheer FAT pounds...not muscle pounds as I had been thinking. There is more cellulite on my ass and thighs than I even care to know about. Side note: I'd like to call bullshit on all these new moms who say "I just love my new voluptuous body!'. You're all damn liars. No one likes a pudgy stomach and thighs.

I believe it's a sign from hell heaven that the newest issue of Self magazine came in the mail on the very day I decided to sneak a peek at myself. I plopped down in the tub praying the hot water would melt away the fat (don't judge, it works on meat and this just proves how diluted my reasoning is). I flipped open the magazine to the exact page where the hip new workout Cross Fit was being featured - another sign from below above. I read through it and decided once I was done baking in the tub, I would give it a shot. It seemed simple enough - it just mixes cardio with strength training. Easy peasy!

Um...turns out it's not so simple. I was ready to quit about 30 seconds in and I hadn't even got through the warm up! But with those thoughts of quitting came mental images of my ass in the mirror so I pushed through. I got through the first WOD (workout of the day) and was convinced I was going to die. Where the hell did my endurance go? I used to be able to spend an hour on the elliptical then an hour of Pilate's and still clean my entire house without resting.

What became shockingly clear to me as I lay on the floor, gasping for air, was that I am STARTING OVER. I'm not who I used to be. I'm the out of shape version of that person and I am going to have to work my ass off - literally - to become her again. My plan now is to build up my endurance again. This Cross Fit exercise routine is a good way to do it because it's short and simple. It takes 20 minutes tops and there is no fancy equipment needed.  And the best part is it's all in one. I'll no longer have to make time for cardio and strength. Plus I can do it without leaving my house.

So hasta la vista, cellulite! You're not welcome on my cheeks any more!