I am very much a pessimistic person. My proverbial glass is always half empty. I forever want more out of my life and sometimes find it hard to be truly thankful for what I have…not because I am not grateful for my job, family, home and health…but because I want all of that and more.
Ever since having Colin, all I want to do is stay home with him. I hate that he is the first kid at daycare and the last to be picked up. I hate that someone else gets to watch him grow up and see all the funny things he does during the day. Every pay day I am reminded that I work to basically cover health insurance and daycare expenses. I complain to Mark that I'm unhappy but that doesn't get me anywhere because I know he can't change it right now and he just ends up unhappy. It's a vicious cycle.
Are you catching on to how this fuels my pessimism?
Today...while sitting all by my miserable self at my miserable job...I decided that I have had enough. Enough negativity. Enough of feeling down on myself. It is high time that I flip the switch and gain some optimism for a change! I came upon this article and decided I am going to follow all the steps. It's kind of like an early New Year's Resolution, if you will.
Each day (or as regularly as I can) I will write about how I did at least one of the steps that day. Hopefully this will keep me accountable to actually go through with it!
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